I’m not perfect, I’m still struggling

 

You would think that becoming Jesus’ baby would make me free from the shackles of the world and sin. Lol! 😂

That’s when the biggest tests come to play o. Since I started my journey, there’s this assumption that many people have that I’m now a saint and I’m not expected to make any mistakes again. But I tell you it’s a lie. Becoming Jesus’ best friend has built a level of expectation and responsibility in me and just knowing that I have to be willing no matter what is a struggle many Christians don’t talk about. 

We struggle, just cause we have our relationship with God doesn’t mean the devil doesn’t keep trying to test us or push our buttons. He still comes in diverse ways and means to try to see if he still has a shot and chance to envelop our hearts. It reminds me so much of Job in the Bible, how the devil kept testing him over and over again and he didn’t budge or fall. He never cursed God or ran away.  

Job 13:15 NKJV

Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him. Even so, I will defend my own ways before Him.

This just shows that our journey with Christ would not always be a bed of roses, but one thing I chose to do is accept every circumstance and situation as it comes and take the lessons that come with it. I still struggle through a lot of things, I still have inner issues that God is helping me work through. There are days I still cry, feel weak, tired, and overwhelmed and I cry to God. There are moments I still feel like I don’t have a direction or I don’t know what to do next.  It’s all part of the process. I had to accept it so I won’t give the devil the chance to put a negative mindset in my heart. Cause the devil thrives more when we are at our lowest so I immediately run to God at the first instance of feeling sad or weak because I don’t want to let the devil have the opportunity to shine and then I begin to doubt the blessings, and plans of God for me. 

A fact we should know is that the struggle for people who have a close relationship with God is all subject to the fact that God has a certain expectation that He wants from His Children and not meeting that makes us struggle more and to be honest, it’s perfectly alright not to get it all at once. But, being able to recognize the struggle and seeking God’s help to strengthen you even at that moment helps a lot. 

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